Okay ._. This post is something that i aren't proud of it. Just went BC and came back. This morning, maybe its unlucky, OR.. she aimed me all along and this is the good chance to strike! Was sitting on the toilet bowl, thinking leh.. Should i stop now or what? I have 4 sticks left now, i don't know how to handle it. I wanted to throw away, but i did not. I mean, if i continue.. or stop. There are both disadvantages and advantages yo. Disadvantages when stop: Wont be able to control my temper, feeling ultra super duper upper tired. or even can cause a fever. Advantage: Save money, Not let mama worry, Feeling more healthy, school want catch catch lor, my conscience is clear, survey proven most of the girls do not like smokers. Yeah.. and its because i suddenly feel like its time to stop? Highest record for the machine is school is 9, i got 11. God damn it. Even om say, OMG. Are you serious? Its a worst situation. now finally i am quite concern about my health. and also without that thing bothering me everyday, i eventually can escape from Miss Tay Clutches. most importantly is save money and feel healthier. If i quit, i am so gonna be a rich kid. Sorry for the words i said to you this morning miss tay. I will take it back. Its your job after all, and i am the one who is at fault. okay, erm. I don't have the confidence to quit. But as when i am thinking, i said to myself something which is a miracle ._. never try never know. if you keep buying it, consuming it. Its gonna be doomsday for my lungs. so yeah. i will try, after this 4 sticks, not gonna buy anymore. but seriously if i cannot tahan, will take back that habit again. I want to try not consuming for 3 days, and to 1 week, 1 month, 3 month, even 1 year. i really do hope so. Need a some motivation, mushroom useless. And also i hope i do not have the peer pressure from my friends. Even though they didn't force me to consume, but when i saw them consuming it, its hard to resist man. after all it have been 3 years.. wont be an easy task. i will therefore try and Tomorrow will be a better Day. Cheers! TRY only (:

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